Fashionista?

What exactly is a Fashionista? Can someone please answer this ? for me. I hear so many people say that they’re a “fashionista” and it drives me insane. Half of the people that say it, in my opinion couldn’t put a descent outfit together if their life depended on it.

Make-Up & Lies

When I was in High School my teacher told my class to write a poem. She wanted our poem to be a mouthpiece for our heart. When she asked us to write a poem I was not excited; I was never a fan of writing poems. I can write an essay on any topic but I HATE writing poems. To cut a long story short, tonight I was cleaning my closet and I found the poem I wrote for that class. I don't think it's poem material lol but I know many girls can read my "poem" and relate to it. I wish I could remember how old I was when I wrote this!

As I look at myself in the mirror I wonder what make-up will I wear today. I have to find something beautiful; something that will conceal the pain that I hide inside, because to the world I'm perfect and that's a lie I'm not ready to reveal. I begin to put on my eyeliner, now no one will know that these beautiful eyes cried a river last night. I begin to put on my lipstick, now no one will know these lips cried God why me? I'm almost done, I look amazing! Now no one can see the real me. No one can see the girl that's a victim of a thousand lies. No one can see the girl that cries her eyes out at night. No one can see the girl with the broken heart. My make-up is my best friend, the secret to all my lies.

...I remember when I finished writing this poem I put it in the back of my notebook and end up writing a poem about fairytale because I thought this poem was too deep.

What's New!?

Ok! So I haven't blogged for a week! I've been extremely busy! The 18th was the last day of classes so I had to make sure all my assignments were done on time. Even though the last day of classes were over on the 18th I still have so much to do! I will be a free woman May 27th...I can't wait!!

Dear Broken Hearts

We get our hearts broken because we always give more than we receive. We fall hard and our expectations are always high! We spend so much of our time trying to make someone happy that we sometimes forget about our own happiness. To all the broken hearts out there, spend more time loving yourself. If he/she is not capable of giving you what you're capable of giving him/her then they're not worth your tears. Moving on is easier said then done, but with every broken heart there's someone special out there waiting to show you the true meaning of love.

Procrastination

I'm not suppose to be blogging right now, but I'm getting annoyed with all this homework. I want to relax for like 10 mins lol (PROCRASTINATION). I miss my baby so much! I know if I was talking to him right now he would be telling me to do my homework. He probably wouldn't talk to me until I completed all my assignments. That's exactly what I need, some motivation!

Hiatus

This week I'm putting my social life on hold! I have a HUGE "To-Do" list to complete! I want to try to finish as much as I can by Wednesday. Spring semester will be over in two weeks and I've been doing good in all my classes and I would hate to fall off! Again wish me luck :)

Family

Looking at my family, especially my Grandma, I understand why we are so strong. My grandmother continues to keep my family together no matter what. She's a true example of a God fearing woman. I called her tonight and poured out my soul to her. We talked about everything. She gave me advice and told me to close my eyes and we prayed. Doing this made me feel much better, which made me realize it's time I get my life closer to God.

Prayers

They say God answers all prayers, well I hope he answers mine. My uncle has cancer and he's been doing ok! But tonight he was admitted to the hospital and my aunt called and said he's not doing well. I've been dealing with a lot lately and this is something that I didn't want to hear, especially not tonight. I feel really bad because I've only seen him once since I found out he had cancer and now I'm being told he's not doing well. Visiting hours are over and I won't be able to see him until tomorrow. I hate dealing with death and I hope I won't have to deal with it anytime soon. I posted this on my blog because I wanted to share an important life lesson that I learned tonight. Life is short and unpredictable, therefore don't dwell on the past. Cherish the moments you share with the ones you love and live everyday like it's your last. To everyone that visits my blog please keep my uncle in your prayers.

19 More Days!

I'm turning 21 in 19 more days and I'm so excited! I decided that I'm going to party my ass off and go to Atlantic City! I really had my heart set on going to Italy but I think I need to do more research & planning before I go there! Everyone is telling me I should go to Miami or Las Vegas, but I'm not interested in those places. I just want to have fun and be surrounded by the people that I love :)

Keeper

"You worked hard to get it, Work harder to keep it"

I had a conversation with one of my close friends last night, and of course we start talking about love and relationships. He told me that he recently broke up with his girlfriend, I was really surprised because they always seemed happy. As we got deeper into our conversation he began to explain the problems in their relationship. Basically the issues was that his ex girlfriend worked hard to get him but didn't work hard to keep him. When he said this I automatically understood why he had to break up with her. Usually, when you first meet someone they say and do things to impress you and prove to you that they're different. Before you get into a relationship with that person he/she gives you many reasons as to why you should be with him/her. Once that person gets into a relationship with you they no longer do the things that they did to get you. Listening to my friend talk about his problems helped me understand why so many relationships fail. Everyone (well not everyone) wants to be in a relationship but no one wants to work hard to stay in a relationship. No relationship is perfect but if it's worth it then do what you have to do to keep your significant other, because once he/she is gone you'll be the one left with regrets.