Rambling

I don't feel like I belong to my generation! I don't fit in! My morals and beliefs are different from the people I surround myself with. I look at my friends and see what they want in life, then I look at what I want & sometimes I wish that I could want the same things. To be honest with you I wish I was the type of female that likes to party. I wish I could get excited about finding a new dress to go to an upcoming event. I wish that life was as simple as my friends make it seem. I wish that I could live in the moment and talk about the new guys that I've met, but I can't. Sometimes I feel like being Brittany is so complicated! I don't care about dating new guys, or "keeping my options open". I don't care about going to parties and hanging out every weekend. I constantly think I have one life to live and I have no idea when it will be taken from me so I have to get as close to perfect as I can. I want to enjoy my life with one man. I want to enjoy my life working hard to become successful. I feel like I'm rambling, oh well! But I wish love, marriage, and success meant more than it does today. I wish it was easier for me to get my life closer to God. I want three things and that's to be a woman of God, a happy marriage, and success. I know I'm young, but is there a verse in the bible that says you have to be a certain age to live your life this way or you have to be a certain age to receive these things?